Saturday, October 23, 2010

This morning while I was thinking about getting up, I was randomly thinking about my life and my friends. I hope that it all comes out to your understanding.

While I was thinking about moving back to Logan, Utah, I was reminded of my friends and the ones I have met the whole 8 years I lived there. I have met some wonderful people who have now graduated and moved on with their lives. I was thinking I will miss them when I get back. I knew where to find them if I needed to talk to someone about my life's drama.

Then my mind shifted gears and I was remembering the friends I had here in Texas 10 years ago. I guess I just expected the friends that I had then would be here when I came back last year. After realizing that everyone has lives, they all moved on with theirs. I miss my friend Chris "Topher" H. and Chris M. They made my life fun back in the day. I am not complaining about things and how I think my life sucks. I do miss my friends.

Talking about friends, I love facebook but I wonder really who is my friend. I mean, I know everyone I am friends with. I have 866 friends on facebook. The sad thing is that the list of most friends goes like: Utah State, High School, Family, and church. Shouldn't family be first? The friends I had from high school, I believe I am friends with maybe a handful of them on facebook. Most of the kids I had in high school don't want anything to do with me now and the kids that didn't want anything to do with me are my friends. I don't understand.. I was remembering at a class reunion in '05 someone who was mean to me all the years I knew her came up to me and told me she was sorry for hating me. She grew up and had kids to realize that what she was saying and doing to me was hurting me. I did accept her apology and told her it was alright. I wonder if that is what my facebook high school friends feel. I mean, I do know of them and I recognize their face but we never hung out growing up.

I work in a store in a mall and I see people I grew up with, either high school or church. It is so weird when I see them and they look the same some what. I mean, I recognize them but it takes awhile for me to connect a name to a face. They all see happy and content with their lives that it doesn't matter what happened 15 years ago, they are living now!

I do sometimes miss my life then, had good friends that I really do love and miss. One friend just stepped off the face of the Earth and his sister even doesn't know where he is. It is really sad but I know that he is doing well. The last I heard from him was a couple of years ago. He had told me that he lives in Europe half the year and North Carolina the other half. I don't know why but it's not my life. I do miss my friend Christopher Sean Cooley.

I do love my life today. I have met some wonderful people. There is a reason people come into your life. There is a purpose for everything.

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