Friends

I have been thinking alot lately about the ending of this semester. I know that people move away and start over elsewhere but I don't know why I am having a hard time this time.

I have a friend (told them I wouldn't put his name here) I have been hanging out with more lately. I am trying to help him with things and just be his friend. I apparently have a hard time with this because I want to know everything. I want to know why he started drinking and why he has a hard time going to church and why this and that. I ask but I know he would never get into this big conversation anytime soon. I really do like hanging out with this guy but I know when he moves away, I will be so sad. I will honestly miss him. He is graduating from Utah State this weekend and I don't want to think about it to much. I get sad.

I have a few friends that are moving to the Salt Lake area for work, school or a new start. I will definitely miss them. I just want them to know that I do appreciate the friendship that we have established while they were here in Logan. I do wish them the best in whatever they do.

I have been thinking about the past friends I have had and the now friends that I have. I am trying to forget the past but it is difficult at times. I would love to stop wondering why Jeff decided not to be friends with me and why my high school friends didn't keep in touch with me. I would love to know that my friends will always be there when I need them the most.

Today, I was having a conversation with my friend Amy about me not being able to have a serious conversation with anybody. I sent a text to my guy friend and it was in all seriousness. I have a worry that I won't be able to be serious when we were to be face to face. I have been told more than once that I wouldn't be able to have a serious conversation with anybody. It's not me. I would hope that I can but when things get uncomfortable and uneasy I laugh. I guess that is why nobody can believe that I can be serious.

I just want all my friends to know that I love you all. I would do anything for you and hope that it is mutual. Good Luck with the rest of your Finals and have a great summer.

People Watching

I enjoy my job at the bookstore, especially when I get to sit and work the sidewalk sale. I do a lot of people watching and I don't mind. I think it is relaxing. There are a few people who make sitting and watching worth it.

Yesterday, I have seen all kinds of things. This one kid was walking with a smile and not a care in the world. It made me smile to see, not that I don't ever have a smile on my face.

Sitting in the hallway for, for me anyways, reminds me of how many people I actually know. The majority of the people I know I met while working at the bookstore. I will miss not working there.

You have people who like to smile, annoy with their chewing gum, one's running late-either for a final or just running late for something. You can always know by their movement, the fast walk or the run through the TSC. You have the disappointed people that found out their book they paid so much money for isn't worth anything and my favorite people are those who think wearing plaid shorts actually looks good with a striped shirt. Don't they look in a mirror!! Oh and the people who know you but pretend they don't know you or see you. That is a winner in my book. What am I going to do?? Nothing, it isn't something to get all bent out of shape for. If they don't want to say hello to me, it is their loss..

I love when people say hello to me, especially those I should know their names but can't remember. Too many names to remember but I am working on it.

While people watching yesterday, I noticed a few more things that I want to share. I am intrigued by the couples where I wonder how did that happen. But then I realize that there is someone for everyone and if that is true, then I should have someone soon!! :) Also with people watching, you see the non-matching individuals, ones consumed with their phones, butt cracks, hungry eaters, friends and many interesting things.

I love to people watch, what can I say?

What am I going to do now?

My days at my current job are numbered and looking for another job isn't looking to promising right now. I have been looking for additional work since Aug '08 and it hasn't looked good and still doesn't. It sucks to know what I want to but I don't have enough experience to do it.

I was joking around with my mom about going to Tennessee (little brother's graduating from University of Memphis) and not coming back until the fall. My mom took that as 'I should move out of Utah and find promising work elsewhere' What?! She later told me that I should move back in with my parents and find work in Atlanta. Where will I sleep? My parents have a two bedroom, two bath place where both my parents, my sister, her husband and three kids live. There isn't room for me in the inn.

I broke down and applied at Walmart. I don't really want to work there but at least it is something rather than nothing. I do need an income and hopefully since I have worked retail I can get more money. We will see..

Giving Blood

I am still trying to figure this whole blogging this out. If you haven't noticed, those pictures are from my Spring Break. It was a lot of fun and entertaining til the end. There were so many pictures I wanted to put up.

I gave blood today and it made me happy even though they had a hard time getting a needle in my arm. Both my arms ended up getting blood taken out of them. Nobody could get the needle in and then the supervisor came over dug around a little bit (I did not feel anything, seriously) and as soon as she got it in the vein my bag was half full by the time they put tape on my arm to keep the needle still. That is when the major problems started. The weigh that held the bag said that my bag was full in reality wasn't, then the machine would turn off every so often and then my needle decided it didn't want to stay put (good thing the bag was full), so to fill the 6 tubes of blood, my nurse decided it was best to get it from my other arm. I didn't feel a thing. I filled them up and was off to whatever it was. I finished giving blood at 12:50pm, the sad thing is I went at 10:30am after work.. As long as I helped someone, I don't care how long it takes..

Canyon Overlook Trail. Should take 1 hour from start to finish but took us 3 hours.. Crazy!! This is Mike, me and Suzanne at the top.

I made it all the way.. Yeah for me...

I am not sure who took this picture if anyone. This is also in Zions National Park.

I am hanging out with Elvis and Michael Jackson in Vegas. Who knew.. Elvis was pretty good looking too...


The last three pictures are me with Red just outside of M&M World in Vegas. The group picture of Me, Suzanne and Mike in Konob. And my favorite picture last. I made it to Paris! Mike saw these two gentlemen in front of us and asked them if they would mind taking a picture with me. They were the nicest guys in Vegas. To bad they weren't going our direction.